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Sabbatical III

Dear Yen

 

you did it! you asked for a sabbatical, n there, you have it. 6 whole months, n maybe, MORE.

I know you r a bit apprehensive about how to address your work n supervisors after 6 months.

But, its your life, not theirs. You do not live your life for them, but for yourself. And this has to BE, from now on. You cannot miss this big picture from now.

My advice to you is this.

To spend the next 6 months like never before.

As in, live like never before. in the opposite of how you have –if the past was in fear, with fear/worry/negativity, or whatever, then start from june 11th, effect a change from within, live WITHOUT fear/worry/negativity/whatever.

Do what you like.

Do not hesitate.

Live simple.

Think simply.

Devote yourself to the cause you find most at peace with.

Sing.

Write.

Dance.

Breathe.

Do yoga.

Be completely, YOU.

I know that with these in mind, it will be the most beautiful/ transformative time of your life.

Think good thoughts. Harbour goodness. Extend help. n loving kindness.

Eat organic. Go green. Play with the children. Do all you like. Be well n happy.

I wish you love, joy, happiness.

 

From: your dearest Yen,

9th June 2013

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Sabbatical II

Dearies

I received a call from HR about my application , the lady says ” it’s been approved”.

And so there r a few things she has to let me know.

That
– newspapers will not b sent to my house
– there will b no more dental or medical benefits n I have to surrender my Shenton medical card.
– that $56 will be deducted from my salary because the company gave us a sum of $100 at the beginning of the year to offset medical co pay bills
– that my office email account will cease for 6 mths

And a host of others I can’t really remember .

It seemed as if she was taking away things that belonged to me.

Before I was aware , I was shocked. It hit me before I knew its name. And there was a little feeling of insecurity. I would b without pay, after close to 11 years of drawing a salary.

Will I b alright?

It seemed as if I were losing things, belongings, my hard earned position , achievements, connections, personal satisfaction.

I didn’t think you would understand, I didn’t think your daddy will either, how much of a sacrifice this will be for me. Or how much of a gamble this is for me.

In the one year I m gone off work, I will b replaced. I will lose touch. I will lose connections. I will need to start afresh when I go back, it would b doubly hard.

But wisdom in my heart told me other story.

Those things were not mine to begin with. I just had the privilege n opportunity to possess them. And I think most importantly, I made good of them whilst having them.

Wisdom told me too, that I could take this as an exercise of letting go, n to live simply.after all, Those were extras that I could leave without.

As I carried huaihao in my arms, there was an idea of being stripped to the minimum. This is a v good opportunity to soak myself or address what really matters, my family, my children , my life. And to do what I really want.

And I suddenly feel so good I m stripped bare. To the basics.

To b light n without burden. Like starting anew somewhat. Like a pie of paper.

Most importantly, I have huaihao n qinzhi. They were worth every of the above I had to let go off. As huaihao drank from me, n smiled in his sleep, his cheeks full n rosy, his lips small n pinky, I knew it was going to b one of the best decisions I have made for myself in life.

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Sabbatical I

Dearies

No pay leave has a nicer name in English , n that is

Sabbatical

a sabbatical (from Latin sabbaticus, from Greek sabbatikos, from Hebrew shabbat, i.e., Sabbath, literally a “ceasing”) is a rest from work, or a break, often lasting from two months to a year. The concept of sabbatical has a source in shmita, described several places in the Bible (Leviticus 25, for example, where there is a commandment to desist from working the fields in the seventh year). In the strict sense, therefore, a sabbatical lasts a year.

The main Bible passage for sabbatical concepts is Genesis 2:2-3, in which God rested (literally, “ceased” from his labour) after creating the universe, and it is applied to people (Jew and Gentile, slave and free) and even to beasts of burden in one of the Ten Commandments (Exodus 20:8-11, reaffirmed in Deuteronomy 5:12-15).

In recent times, “sabbatical” has come to mean any extended absence in the career of an individual in order to achieve something. In the modern sense, one takes sabbatical typically to fulfill some goal, e.g., writing a book or travelling extensively for research.

O well.

I wanted a year off, but my boss agreed to 6 mths.

As for my goal, it’s to rest. As well, to fulfill my dream/imagination of staying home for my children. To come back to myself.

After having thought about it in my mind for so so long, it has become a dream come true.

🙂

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Joy

我很久没有品尝到这个滋味了。

打从心底的喜悦。开怀。畅快。

一种解放。

原来做决定的感觉就是这样。原来,给予自己是这样。原来,疼爱自己是这样。

目前,只有sam懂,但感觉已经很棒。

its a promise to myself n my dearie qinzhi.

mummy did it.