It will be. I will work hard to be the best version of TPY.
It will be. I will work hard to be the best version of TPY.
2016 has been a taste or teaching of alignment, grounding, life purpose.
And following that.
it is about being open minded enough to be able to hear and touch one’s life purpose and savouring the beauty of it.
when I think of how its writing that brought me here, to do the things I have, I find it unbelievable.
like how I have expanded my repertoire to be involved with seeing concepts as well.
like so much inner work that has gone through.
2016 has about discovering myself and the limitless possibilities that can be. as if a baby flexing his limbs and has just begun to crawl.
Thank You 2016, you have been so important as my teacher.
I tried so many new things, I left a job of 15 years, I joined a new place, I took part in a retreat, I did FB Live with Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche, I created Friend of Michelin concept, I worked with Nicholas Tse, I learnt about holding a process.
I learned to work with myself and new people, I learned to work with my family and my husband, I learned about balancing. And is still learning to do that better.
It has been nothing short of incredible.
I remember telling Teacher, that going forward, I want to create more videos, and do more concepts, that would create a spark, a moment of wonder, a sense of dicovery in another’s life.
May the divine guide and support me on all fronts.
I celebrate you, TPY, you who has triumphed the big and little, on all fronts on all counts, once and again. You who have drawn out energy from the deepest once and again. You who believed in yourself and you who didnt give up. You who tried so hard without compromise. You pure and simple. So, well done!
May the brand new 2017 bring with it lots of fresh energies, lots of inspirations, to support big and little breakthroughs. With awareness, we can break free of our old shells, attitudes and share our innermost light with the human race. May there be lots of light, beauty, magic and wonder in the days ahead. May we all be blessed and protected, with wisdom.
I want to be that light, that magic and wonder. I want to b free. may you be free.
May you be well and happy.
Before 2016 ends off, I went for another insightful mind spa session.
Inspired by a colleague’s words, I wanted a closure to 2016.
I shared with Teacher how this year has been and how I have been looking for a team.
I remembered that experience talking to M, CY n Cherry. All with different years of experience and each sort of a reflection of me, at a different point in time.
As if reminding me not to lose my passion n that me in work.
I talked about M, and how she stands for responsibility.
I talked about CY n I got touched.
I’ve become more aware of my emotions, I stilled myself to listen to it, I sat with the emotions n teacher asked, what is it about CY that evoked the emotion?
It’s that sense of purity, simplicity n straightforwardness.
And teacher rightly pointed this, ” Yen , u r afraid of losing that part of u. But we grow, look at how far u have come along, our soul evolves and you r set for bigger things. I can see it already.”
I told him about how I have evolved to do concept selling or a salesman of sorts n I m taking this open mindedly. And that I m always balancing commercial situations with an educational angle.
But this is one of the most commercial situations I have worked with in my life since 10-15 years back when we had a financial situation at home.
Obviously I didn’t learn all that I had to, so circumstances have evolved to get me to face issues I needed to breakthrough.
I told him about the dream I have yesterday.
Are dreams accidental?
“Nope. Dreams are messages that are important.”
In my dream, I went into a temple of tablets with2 friends. Both of them disappeared n I was left alone, breaking thru doors n doors of tablets before emerging into light n seeing my friend. She is Yiling and she squeezed my hand, as if a nod to our friendship.
Teacher asked about the most obvious quality of my friend.
I said: “she is so obstinate so so so steadfast.”
He decoded the dream for me.
That a part of myself, the obstinate character in me is in need of some attention.
And tablets – the environment, was about things that have gone past.
“Are you holding on to things that do not serve you and your life anymore? Time to let them go.”
We spoke about my attitudes towards working. Such as me being fixated with judgements on money, commercialisation n how I should b creative totally and not be commercialized.
“But there’s nothing wrong with money. Or commercializing something. If u remember the movie Matrix, you would know what I mean. Matrix is such a deep movie but the creators were able to bring the ideas down to the mass levels so that people of the commons could access the deeper ideas. And I find it so amazing that the movie could combine such lofty ideas with commercial success.”
The inspiration is to break free n not approach anything with judgements. So that I can b totally free in the mind and heart.
Teacher reminded again, “there’s nothing wrong in commercializations but the intention behind it.”
The inspiration is again, intention n what you want to do. It’s also learning to bring yourself down to the level of the masses.
Teacher also mentioned the term ancestral healing.
“A lot of times, traits we carry are an inheritance from our ancestors…”
And I shared how my maternal grandfather was often billed as stingy or how calculative he would be as a businessman n everything is reduced to cents that cannot be compromised.
And I met this match in my new environment- my boss, who is a reflection of grandfather ‘s traits.”
“Learn to work n heal this energy . That would heal your ancestors n your next generation. Learn to make a change that will make a difference .”
I realized that opening my heart n a really open attitude n awareness is what will be crucial n helpful to making a difference.
I realized also that by having balances to commercial initiatives is a way my soul is creatively addressing this issue.
Teacher encouraged me to give a little wrap — and it wasn’t easy.
“it was this ups and downs, very intense ones, and then a straight line. I m happy to be here now, with the straight line. recently I had a swollen gum and a raw throat, and I suddenly began to enjoy a simple bowl of rice porridge. I had cut down on food and animal protein this year and if I had it, it would be too much for me to take.
I m happy to be here at this point in time.
But it was as if I had done nothing, everything was surreal and, unbelievable. 不可思议。我好像什么都没有做。一切来的那么容易。Everything came naturally. I didn’t do anything, I was just a passerby. And I happened to experience it. ”
The Divine had a hand in this.
But also I discovered something I did differently. In the ups and downs, I gave my presence to that moment, so when things passed, so did I. I was able to let it go easily. I didn’t hang on.
It was different from the past, when I was blocked and didn’t face up to the moments, and would have to relive those afterwards.
And teacher let out his angel cards for me.
“like how you mentioned the divine’s hand…let the divine do this too!”
and the spiritual quality I drew out was
I told him about hearing about my friend’s unhappy marital relationships and how I was reminded of my dad n mom.
The divine was spot on, it would be my learning for 2017, to learn to let go n forgive, dad n me.
“your dad didn’t have the awareness and wisdom like u have, he didn’t have the opportunity like u have. he ‘s almost acting under the influences of all he had before him. and although I do not know him, I know he did it for the family and he is feeling so so so so sorry about it”
I could feel how so so so so sorry my dad is in those moments and I told teacher that.
I asked for another card. and teacher suggested, “how about another quality that would support your finding forgiveness?”
I got Expansiveness.
Open mindedness, to distill yourself out of the environment you are in, and look at it from the outside. I m reminded of this realisation that dawned upon me as I was what sapping Xie YM.
I also told teacher, I feel like I m looking for something, even if I have formed a core team at work.
Teacher felt that too.
I told him about the lack of support I felt in work.
To which he replied,” the real sense of support would be felt if one’s purpose is aligned to the core. Nothing very much to do with the external environment really.”
And today, miraculously, I knew what I was looking for.
IT WAS BF’S SUPPORT.
I’ve aways had this sense of worry or uncertainty about bf’s feelings towards me working.
I finally popped the qns today and we had a discussion.
I had a sense that I had some, but not total unconditional support.
good enough for the time being I guess.
I m grateful.
Teacher reminded me about the importance of self care.
“remember to have your bowl of porridge, thats a time for you to rest n settle and to recharge so that you can have your ideas when u need.”
I saw this first as a thought, like a seed of sorts. Then with some imagination, little expectation, I made contact. And today, he’s become a Friend of Michelin, the first ever in history since the guide has come into being. Sharing this dream project with all of you foodies. And I say again, that this magic food can do, has to be savoured with loved ones. They make good food, unforgettable. And when the act of eating becomes an experience, they will forever be stored as memories. 謝霆鋒《鋒味》 ＃FriendofMichelin #米芝蓮之友 ＃MichelinGuideHongKongMacau2017 #yenmuzremember
Long article but essentially reminding me how important it is to fetch the spirit or soul out of something/somebody.
Was on my way to work n passed by a patch of green.
There were little sparrows, the road was busy with activity but I still heard them chirp.
It was beautiful because there was awareness in that moment.
Without awareness I wouldn’t b in that moment to capture that truth that happened.
I remember being very stretched one day stepping out of the office n I saw a bird drink from a pool of water.
I remember telling teacher about how I would b especially attracted to a bird even if I was walking on the pavement.
Teacher’s reply- birds stand for freedom n taking flight.
I heard this voice again this morning. With awareness, I also heard an inner voice say,
“If you don’t stop yourself, no one else can stop you from flying. The sky’s the limit–so, fly. Be fearless. Fly off.”
I hadn’t watched tv for a long time. But At this point in time, I was particularly drawn to a Taiwanese drama. It speaks of the love a man has for a woman. That ran so so deep, he gave her up So she could b free.
I could concur with that feeling because I had bf ‘s blessings to go do what I like.
That was why I felt so moved n attracted.
As I was walking on the pavement again, I saw leaves falling.
He was genuinely happy talking about an autumn in childhood. When he was walking and the brown orangey leaves rustled under his feet. I could hear the sound as he spoke.
That’s the beauty of an interview. You travel and wonder . And I m sure I will b reminded of this another time I tread on fallen autumnal leaves.
It is all the more wonderful when I remember how this all began–it is food that took me travelling.
I really like this story,
it calls out to me alot. To traverse boundaries and look for new possibilities.
” People like to put you in a box. I always disappoint them, and I always wanted to disappoint them.”
I truly believe in the power of words.