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Thank you 2016, and Goodbye

2016 has been a taste or teaching of alignment, grounding, life purpose.

And following that.

it is about being open minded enough to be able to hear and touch one’s life purpose and savouring the beauty of it.

when I think of how its writing that brought me here, to do the things I have, I find it unbelievable.

like how I have expanded my repertoire to be involved with seeing concepts as well.

like so much inner work that has gone through.

2016 has about discovering myself and the limitless possibilities that can be. as if a baby flexing his limbs and has just begun to crawl.

Thank You 2016,  you have been so important as my teacher.

I tried so many new things, I left a job of 15 years, I joined a new place, I took part in a retreat, I did FB Live with Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche, I created Friend of Michelin concept, I worked with Nicholas Tse, I learnt about holding a process.

I learned to work with myself and new people, I learned to work with my family and my husband, I learned about balancing. And is still learning to do that better.

It has been nothing short of incredible.

I remember telling Teacher, that going forward, I want to create more videos, and do more concepts, that would create a spark, a moment of wonder, a sense of dicovery in another’s life.

May the divine guide and support me on all fronts.

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I celebrate you,  TPY, you who has triumphed the big and little, on all fronts on all counts, once and again. You who have drawn out energy from the deepest once and again. You who believed in yourself and you who didnt give up. You who tried so hard without compromise. You pure and simple. So, well done!
May the brand new 2017 bring with it lots of fresh energies, lots of inspirations, to support big and little breakthroughs. With awareness, we can break free of our old shells, attitudes and share our innermost light with the human race. May there be lots of light, beauty, magic and wonder in the days ahead. May we all be blessed and protected, with wisdom.

I want to be that light, that magic and wonder. I want to b free. may you be free.

May you be well and happy.

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Happy 2017!

 

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Healing XXXXii

Before 2016 ends off, I went for another insightful mind spa session.

Inspired by a colleague’s words, I wanted a closure to 2016.

I shared with Teacher how this year has been and how I have been looking for a team.

I remembered that experience talking to M, CY n Cherry. All with different years of experience and each sort of a reflection of me, at a different point in time.

As if reminding me not to lose my passion n that me in work.

I talked about M, and how she stands for responsibility.

I talked about CY n I got touched.

I’ve become more aware of my emotions, I stilled myself to listen to it, I sat with the emotions n teacher asked, what is it about CY that evoked the emotion?

It’s that sense of purity, simplicity n straightforwardness.

And teacher rightly pointed this, ” Yen , u r afraid of losing that part of u. But we grow, look at how far u have come along, our soul evolves and you r set for bigger things. I can see it already.”

I told him about how I have evolved to do concept selling or a salesman of sorts n I m taking this open mindedly. And that I m always balancing commercial situations with an educational angle.

But this is one of the most commercial situations I have worked with in my life since 10-15 years back when we had a financial situation at home.

Obviously I didn’t learn all that I had to, so circumstances have evolved to get me to face issues I needed to breakthrough.

I told him about the dream I have yesterday.

Are dreams accidental?

“Nope. Dreams are messages that are important.”

In my dream, I went into a temple of tablets with2 friends. Both of them disappeared n I was left alone, breaking thru doors n doors of tablets before emerging into light n seeing my friend. She is Yiling and she squeezed my hand, as if a nod to our friendship.

Teacher asked about the most obvious quality of my friend.

I said: “she is so obstinate so so so steadfast.”

He decoded the dream for me.

That a part of myself, the obstinate character in me is in need of some attention.

And tablets – the environment, was about things that have gone past.

“Are you holding on to things that do not serve you and your life anymore? Time to let them go.”

We spoke about my attitudes towards working. Such as me being fixated with judgements on money, commercialisation n how I should b creative totally and not be commercialized.

“But there’s nothing wrong with money. Or commercializing something. If u remember the movie Matrix, you would know what I mean. Matrix is such a deep movie but the creators were able to bring the ideas down to the mass levels so that people of the commons could access the deeper ideas. And I find it so amazing that the movie could combine such lofty ideas with commercial success.”

The inspiration is to break free n not approach anything with judgements. So that I can b totally free in the mind and heart.

Teacher reminded again, “there’s nothing wrong in commercializations but the intention behind it.”

The inspiration is again, intention n what you want to do. It’s also learning to bring yourself down to the level of the masses.

Teacher also mentioned the term ancestral healing.

“A lot of times, traits we carry are an inheritance from our ancestors…”

And I shared how my maternal grandfather was often billed as stingy or how calculative he would be as a businessman n everything is reduced to cents that cannot be compromised.

And I met this match in my new environment- my boss, who is a reflection of grandfather ‘s traits.”

“Learn to work n heal this energy . That would heal your ancestors n your next generation. Learn to make a change that will make a difference .”

I realized that opening my heart n a really open attitude n awareness is what will be crucial n helpful to making a difference.

I realized also that by having balances to commercial initiatives is a way my soul is creatively addressing this issue.

Teacher encouraged me to give a little wrap — and it wasn’t easy.

“it was this ups and downs, very intense ones, and then a straight line. I m happy to be here now, with the straight line. recently I had a swollen gum and a raw throat, and I suddenly began to enjoy a simple bowl of rice porridge. I had cut down on food and animal protein this year and if I had it, it would be too much for me to take.

I m happy to be here at this point in time.

But it was as if I had done nothing, everything was surreal and, unbelievable. 不可思议。我好像什么都没有做。一切来的那么容易。Everything came naturally. I didn’t do anything, I was just a passerby. And I happened to experience it. ”

The Divine had a hand in this.

But also I discovered something I did differently. In the ups and downs, I gave my presence to that moment, so when things passed, so did I. I was able to let it go easily. I didn’t hang on.

It was different from the past, when I was blocked and didn’t face up to the moments, and would have to relive those afterwards.

And teacher let out his angel cards for me.

“like how you mentioned the divine’s hand…let the divine do this too!”

and the spiritual quality I drew out was

Forgiveness.

I told him about hearing about my friend’s unhappy marital relationships and how I was reminded of my dad n mom.

Forgiveness.

The divine was spot on, it would be my learning for 2017, to learn to let go n forgive, dad n me.

“your dad didn’t have the awareness and wisdom like u have, he didn’t have the opportunity like u have. he ‘s almost acting under the influences of all he had before him. and although I do not know him, I know he did it for the family and he is feeling so so so so sorry about it”

I could feel how so so so so sorry my dad is in those moments and I told teacher that.

I asked for another card. and teacher suggested, “how about another quality that would support your finding forgiveness?”

I got Expansiveness.

Open mindedness, to distill yourself out of the environment you are in, and look at it from the outside. I m reminded of this realisation that dawned upon me as I was what sapping Xie YM.

置身其中,也要有置身其外的心情。

I also told teacher, I feel like I m looking for something, even if I have formed a core team at work.

Teacher felt that too.

I told him about the lack of support I felt in work.

To which he replied,” the real sense of support would be felt if one’s purpose is aligned to the core. Nothing very much to do with the external environment really.”

And today, miraculously, I knew what I was looking for.

IT WAS BF’S SUPPORT.

I’ve aways had this sense of worry or uncertainty about bf’s feelings towards me working.

I finally popped the qns today and we had a discussion.

I had a sense that I had some, but not total unconditional support.

good enough for the time being I guess.

I m grateful.

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Teacher reminded me about the importance of self care.

“remember to have your bowl of porridge, thats a time for you to rest n settle and to recharge so that you can have your ideas when u need.”

 

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3 yrs 11 mths

带姨姨婆婆去吃一顿,小瓜看到圣诞装饰,上阵玩一把:)我们乐在其中,拍拍拍拍拍!

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听商场里的圣诞歌颂

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这一天,终于带宝贝去国家艺术馆,有许多孩子可以参与的游戏,看皓皓画的车!long vehicle上面还有小辆的!

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好喜欢看姐姐这么抱着皓皓,沁芝就是这样,一直这么疼爱皓皓。没有原因,没有条件。

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这一天,去植物园,让沁芝皓皓做最喜欢的事,喂养猫鱼,姐姐还分面包给弟弟。然后爸爸教皓皓用一只脚hop,好好笑!接着去喜欢的游乐场,并且参观另一家饲养鸡只和种植植物的餐厅。皓皓还记得我们去perth的burnside organic喂养鸡只的事情 :)

回忆就是这样,神奇地在身体里活着。

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姐姐yamaha的时候,皓皓就喜欢到hamley’s逛逛。

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mommy很喜欢意大利Venchi的冰淇淋:)喜欢让沁芝皓皓吃能力范围内最好的。

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然后再逛逛乌节路的圣诞灯饰

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圣诞节,圣诞老人在包装礼物。爸爸的爱都在这里了,从美国运过来!

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阿Tin阿姨申请到MBS staycation,带小瓜去,泡浴缸、上博物馆、美术馆,放风筝,吃吃喝喝。和amei阿姨、庚延舅舅和公公晚餐,还收到圣诞礼物

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皓皓长大了,睡衣变小了,之前买的裤袜都不能穿,而且穿衣服也讲究了,不喜欢黑色,不喜欢大大的bold design,还会拒绝某些mommy选的衣物。

他能言善道。善于和大人交涉,语言能力惊人。

比如阿姨问在便便的他,好了吗?他会话的内容是——即便你再问,还是要等待!

爸爸说,怎么在pasir ris吃饭的时候,没有在餐桌上吃?他说,餐桌太小没有位!

最喜欢晚上睡觉时,皓皓抚摸我的脸庞。他会直接跟我说:我喜欢你!

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我的宝贝!May you be well and happy!

May you continue to discover and grow and learn, and be the light that you are. I wish you love!

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7 years 10 months

沁芝7岁10个月大了。

转眼之间,又到圣诞节。带姨姨婆婆去吃。小瓜看到圣诞装饰,跃跃一试。

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还有百货商场里的圣诞歌曲表演。

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这一天,带沁芝皓皓去植物园,然后到她喜欢的游乐场。周边有餐厅养鸡、种植,让他们去参观

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Yamaha之后去国家艺术馆,在那里涂涂画画。

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当然还有逛乌节路的圣诞灯饰,今年还有玩的!

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趁沁芝皓皓在pasir ris,大扫除,爸爸就是这样,在帮着宝贝刨彩色笔。

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ah tin阿姨帮我们book了MBS3天2夜的staycaytion,待会儿就去。沁芝兴奋极了。

泡浴缸、上博物馆、美术馆、放风筝,还有和阿姨、公公、舅舅晚餐,当然还有圣诞礼物收

给沁芝皓皓买最好吃的水果挞。

希望小朋友累积多一件美妙的假期回忆,接着就要收拾心情上学去。

期待下一次假期:)

I hope 2016 has been a year of discovery for you, dear qinzhi, it was wonderful achievement because you went to primary school and got adjusted into the rhythm of primary school life. You became more independent and was able to buy food during recess and handle the daily routines of school.

That was a wonderful achievement and mommy is so so proud of you.

Going forward, i hope you will open up more and be the qinzhi you are . Because that is the most powerful you, the best you, and its what you are here for.

I wish you love!