Retreat with Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche

Experienced my very first meditative retreat with the world’s happiest man—Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche.

And the experience was awesome.

Its about taking the time for yourself, to sit and be with yourself.

And in the process of sitting and observing, you just become a better person. Why ? Simply because you are in the moment, and that is the most important thing that we have taken for granted.

And in the process of sitting, there’s always a discovery, sometimes its a voice of gratitude, sometimes you discover and realise how you can be a better person.

Like understanding that quiet is the most important part of speech. Like realising that getting lost is one of the most important step to finding yourself.

Most of all, its the discipline to keep on coming back when you are lost in thoughts. In that moment that you realise you are lost, you have come back. And delighting in that great awareness brings a simple pure joy.

Rinpoche’s advice is always this: you don’t have to do anything, but don’t get lost.

its so simple its so hard.

But i met him 5 years ago, and i met him again.

this time, i had the chance to present him on the FB page of the michelin.guide.sg and michelin.guide.com.hk to speak about mindful eating. I think eating well has to do with more than gd produce and cooking.

Video here:

the soul and true flavour of the food is brought on by the chef’s presence in the process of cooking. and you fully experience this only when you are mindful in the eating process, and that completes the whole of the eating and turns the eating into a practice or an experience. that might stay with you for a long time.

i m truly appreciative of the opportunity and it reminded me about the importance of open mindedness.

i ate simply and learnt to eat mindfully.

Love this piece o advice, to be gentle and appreciative of oneself.


Taking refuge and my name means “Be at Ease”


Took notes during the 5D4N retreat and these are the teachings.

Age of anxiety?

How to have joy in difficult situations?

Let this b a starting point

There’s things in life that u can’t change e.g. Situations

E.g. Getting old

But there’s one thing we can always change n that is your mind

Your mind is in your hand

Mayb u cannot change your wrinkles

How your mind react to getting old is in your hands

Mind makes small prob big problem

The mind is the cause of suffering n happiness

Mantra- recite 3 times happy

Know your own mind

Care your own mind

Know nature essence n quality of your mind

Don’t look outside, The real peace is in your mind

Prob is not the panic

It’s how u react to panic

Aversion: panic of panic

attachment: craving to stop panic

Learning fr panic

Panic becomes teacher n friend

Learn awareness , compassion,wisdom

Can b with panic

When panic comes I m happy

When panic comes, meditation comes

No panic no meditation

Panic comes remind my meditation

Sensation of panic becomes pleasant

E.g. Pain is unpleasant

But they say pain is gd for u

After a while pain becomes pleasant

You can change

Panic c can b changed into joy

Your Mind is in your hand


The practice :

  1. awareness of body- bring awareness into your body. Mind normally up jumping betw past n future. Mind v speedy . How to bring mind into body. Need awareness. Essence of meditation is awareness . You have this awareness all the time.
  2. You all have awareness but u don’t know
  3. You have to recognize your own awareness. Have awareness or no awareness is not the qns. You have awareness 24/7 but u have to recognize it. You don’t know your own awareness
  4. What is meditation . It’s abt recognizing awareness and maintaining that awareness. To maintain that, u need some support. Use our body as support for awareness.
  5. Technique: awareness of body. You don’t have to block thought n emotion. Let them come n go. Don’t forget ur body . After few seconds you will forget, come back. If u know you cannot relax, that is meditation. To b aware. Watch. That’s all

If u see the river that means u r not fall in river ncarried away

If u carried away by river u cannot see it

If u r in tv u can’t see tv

When u watch river u don’t need to stop it. You can watch it flow, so nice.

Whatever exp emotion doesn’t matter, just watch! Don’t block. Impossible to block n no need to block .


Durian meditation

Not allowed to think of durian

But the more u not allowed to think, the more u think of it

Impossible to stop thought n emotion

Thoughtless is not essence of meditation

Might b experience of meditation

Peaceful joyful clarity are exp of meditation

Not the essence of meditation

We have the wonderful quality of awareness love n compassion capability power wisdom skills lot of gd things with u

You r more capable than what you believe

You r more smart than what u think oyou r more gd hearted than wat u feel

Just that u don’t know

We don’t c gd qualities within us

Don’t give up n exxagerate

-Turn your mind onwards n find peace within u

-key to find peace: meditation

-basic goodness: appreciate your life, grateful u have this breath u r here now in this wonderful building

Bring these 3 things in your life anytime anywhere

Short times many times

Fail more better

28/9 7pm Teaching


Let go of worries of life

Sometimes cannot let go, just let it b

Don’t block them

If it’s gone, don’t look for it


Why do I want to do this retreat

But don’t expect too much

I m gg to practice more abt , ready to fail

If u fail more, it’s better

It means u did try a lot

If u didn’t try to meditate u won’t fail

Try my best use my wisdom past experience.

Don’t b too tight on result of experience

If u don’t do anything wrong it’s already wonderful

Try ur best

Try to make meaning abt this retreat

Benefit urself n others

If u r in peace ur friends can feel peace

Bcos we r interconnected

Impt to make meaning

People who connect w u

All of us r like ripples we can influence

The positive things can benefit others

Meditation with obj (body/sound/sleep/sight etc) and without obj (open awareness)

Retreat 27/9 teaching

What is it?

3 layers Outer inner innermost/secret

Outer- related to environment

If we want to change ourselves , environment is v impt at beginning

Change environment adopt new habits

Inner-connect w our body n speech

For body : abstain fr killing life stealing sexual activity bad speech

Innermost -abt your mind. Come here to meditate, so u have to meditate, that’s the secret   , but can’t meditate for four days bcoz of monkey mind

Secret is try

Try- even if u don’t have gd exp of meditation now, try

Don’t stay w meditation exp

Stay with the wish

Meditation exp is like cloud

Realization is like space- nvr change

Our mind don’t attach to exp

If u do that , when u have wonderful exp, you feel well .

When u try there’s awareness

meditation techniques

Body posture

  • keep spine straight all way to head
  • Join hands overlap or both hands on knees
  • Relax body
  • Straight n relax
  • Let body on cushion let mind go into body
  • Don’t have to change or block anything
  • Just b free b yourself
  • Our mind is up jumping betw past n future so meditation can ground

Open awareness

Essence of Meditation is awareness

What is awareness- u know wat u r doing feeling / thinking

Knowingness is awareness

You have this 24/7 even when u sleep

You can’t escape awareness

But you do not recognize it

All meditation tech is to recognize n maintain awareness

To maintain that awareness we have different techniques n obj to recognize awareness

open awareness

  1. How to relax – you don’t know u know. E.g. When u tired u sigh . That time u r relaxing. When walking in park , after that rest on bench n let out a sigh , this is not meditation . This is how to relax.
  2. How to achieve open awareness- just relax body n mind. Even if y can’t relax, you allow n that’s relaxing
  3. Deep breathing- breathe in fr nose n let it out fr mouth w a sigh. Rest with the breath. Natural breath.
  4. that was meditation
  5. What we did : relax. That was open awareness. I didn’t tell u that was meditation. Why? Non meditation is the best meditation, completely natural.
  6. Essence of meditation is awareness. Not the peace thought clarity joy , non conceptual state of mind without thought –all these r experience of meditation that come n go, like cloud.
  7. Realization never change but develop bit by bit but u don’t know how much u r improving. But if look at day one, you can see little bit of improvement. It develops slowly
  8. Nature of meditation experience is go up n down . Don’t expect a peaceful experience. Don’t attach to meditation experience. You can appreciate n b grateful n feel gd abt that meditation experience. Accepting impermanence.
  9. What is the meditation? Where is my awareness? Actually u don’t have to do anything. Not doing is the best doing. If u r being with not doing anything, there’s sense of being n presence, u r not lost.
  10. You don’t have to meditate just don’t get lost . The moment u know u r lost it means u r back, like u wake up. Become alive. Just be. This is child mind. Your mind is fresh without pin points no grasping.
  11. V easy but too easy we don’t believe. and too close to us this precious awareness we cannot  see it. Try n try. As soon as u try, awareness is right there. Come back n lost. Come back again.

Mind always does the opp. If u stop thinking abt durian , all u think of is durian

A lot of pple want peace joy clarity but teacher says, watch ur breath

I look for peace but u ask me to watch boring breath

But by watching breath u can achieve liberalization

But if u go for liberation u won’t get liberation

So when we teach meditation , we say let go.


  1. Mind into body: awareness of body. Do body scan. Put mind on feet if can’t sleep.
  2. Open awareness


Practice: body awareness

Rest ur mind in body n relax n b aware

Comfy or not , just b aware n experience all body sensations, don’t need to like or dislike or analyze these sensations

If u cannot relax you accept that u cannot relax

Whole body, parts, scan

What is the voice that comes out in the midst of relaxing- is it worth listening to it?

Practice : open awareness or meditation without object

Relax after hard work while day

Relaxation w awareness

-no meditation is best meditation

-don’t get lost : don’t know what u r doing

ok to have thoughts n emotion as long as u don’t forget awareness

This may last a second or two n get lost, it’s ok, come back over again,

Realize u r lost its v good, it means u have awareness

Practice the above together

If u feel drowsy open ur eyes

Essence of meditation is awareness

Awareness is knowingness


Living at the present

Use body to recognize awareness

Open awareness

Short time many times

Makes meditation fresh

Interchange techniques to make meditation more experiential

The gentleness in meditation- not tight, b gentle to yourself in life. Don’t force.

Thoughts come n go it’s ok

Open eyes – cut the attachment to meditation experience

Rinpoche teachings

Wrong conceptions abt meditation :think of nothing- don’t look don’t think concentrate. If u block thought n emotion it becomes worse

Goal of joy of living meditation

– transform everything

-self liberation or self antidote

-poison into medication

-anyone can practise

Meditation experience is like clouds, stock market

That’s gd

Difft meditation experience help u learn something

  • UP: when exp go up u feel happy n inspired, appreciate e.g. joy clarity peace non conceptual exp
  • DOWN: agitation (more busy more vivid) dullness (mind is fuzzy foggy unclear feel sleepy)when exp go down , more beneficial for u bcoz u learn to let go. When u let go, helps u grow realization

When u first start meditation, it seems as if ur mind is busy. But actually the thoughts have been there, just that u previously is not aware to it

Another Meditation Technique

-Live our life joyfully transforming everything in support for joy

-enemy become your bodyguard he become your best bodyguard

  1. Whatever experience whatever we receive, it’s thru five doors i.e. Eye ear nose tongue body sensation. E.g. Durian u like it because of taste or smell. You like music because of sound. You like perfume because of smell. You like cool temp because of tactile. They could also b cause of suffering

We can transform all these we experience thru 5 senses

Meditate w eyes

From your eyes, what u see is 2 things, shape n colour

Can u see? Meditation is finished

When eyes see flower , your mind need to see the flower

Eyes can see flower one min, but your mind cannot see this flower for one min. Coz it’s thinking of other things e.g. Durian

So ur mind see durian but eyes see flower

Meditation with flower means eyes n mind see flower

No need strong focus no analyze

To develop awareness with awareness, flower is the reminder of your awareness

When u look at obj , there will b some uncomfortable feeling:

  • colour becomes v bright or dark
  • Eyes will hurt might have tears
  • Obj gives double vision
  • Obj feels like moving n u feel dizzy

These are not a prob, normal not to worry

When u use obj as support for meditation, there will b 3 styles because of 3 personalities:

  • body : if u r reminded of something n u think of that experience and u think of image then u belong to body family .
  • Speech :if u r reminded of experience n u think of words/commentary, then u belong to speech family
  • Mind : sensation or feeling comes first

Whole purpose is to develop awareness

What’s the difference between awareness n meditative awareness

  • that awareness is not recognized
  • Now u recognize awareness n try to maintain that
  • Awareness is important not the movie
  • Sense of non judgmental quality
  • Good or bad it can b support or meditation
  • Then there’s sense of being or self
  • When u recognize awareness there’s a sense of center
  • If u see the river u r out of river

Meditate with sound or sound meditation

How to listen

Ear hear sound mind knows sound

Listen to sound with awareness is sound meditation

Most vivid one use that as sound meditation

Open your ear n let whatever sound come to u, n u listen

Uncontrived let everything be

Nagging or crying- more emotional meditation than sound bcoz emotion is stronger at that point

Sleeping meditation

2 types

  1. With object

Obj is sleepiness. We need sleepiness of tiredness dull or unclear or drowsiness for sleeping meditation.


Watch the feeling of sleepiness w awareness . Just like watching flower. Maybe u feel more sleepy, continue to watch, accept the sleepiness.

When u fall into sleep, still aware, sleep catch the awareness n becomes sleeping meditation

2 signs sleep become meditation- when u wake up u waking up thru meditation. Mind in meditation

Sleep meditation- there is no dream

  1. Without object                                 Open awareness or scan body awareness

Yoga jumping exercise

  • arms in fist swim towards side n let air come out fr nose
  • Legs. Right leg strength jump up land on left

Love the feeling of working hard for spiritual development




Noble Silence

Beautiful sky after the rain – how many times do we get to fully take in this view? How precious this opportunity!

1030 am Teaching

Recognize awareness n meditative awareness

Normal awareness is facing outwards n has duality

Meditative awareness is facing inwards, there’s no duality analysis u simple know there’s a kind of centredness

It only lasts a few seconds

So keep practicing repeatedly

Meditation or mindfulness training is v powerful. In that, it trains u to watch n observe n b out of “it”.

It also trains u to allow and to let it be or let go. And it also trains you to come back.

Repeatedly do so

Mind n eyes tog repeatedly

Mind and ears tog repeatedly

Meditation is looking at it with the heart.

It shows u the activity of your heart – how wild or bored easily it is

Rinpoche 130pm


Do the meditation techniques that is your favorite until u r bored

Awareness has 3 levels

-normal : with u all the time that u didn’t recognize, the awareness before u start meditation

-meditative awareness: now we r practicing this, recognize n maintain with all sorts of techniques . Develop loving compassion kindness wisdom.

-non conceptual awareness: awareness beyond concept, beyond duality , most important one. To recognize this, we need to practice the 2nd awareness.

The real Buddha is within us, the real refuge, our true nature

Meditation help us realize our true nature

Meditation alternate w open awareness is better

You are asleep since u r born

If u combine meditation w sleeping, benefit of meditation higher. Sleep 5 hrs= meditate 5 hrs

Try 30 days mayb once can transform sleep into meditation

Face pain using pain as support for meditation

Change focus- listen to sound

You don’t need to overcome emotions

Awareness cannot change these

Awareness is like space, emotion n thoughts r like cloud

Space no need to block cloud

Cloud cannot block space too

You cannot burn space, shoot space, explode space

Space is always there n free


Awareness is just like space

Agitated mind is like bad weather, that’s all.

Sometimes we need bad weather we need rain

We need emotion n thought

You don’t need to overcome them

You can liberate them

What’s the meaning of liberation

You need to stay with these emotions

You need to recognize that the mind is always liberated n free that’s all

Emotion meditation

When u r not happy, do u know u r not happy?

That’s awareness

You can practice awareness when u r not happy

Continue practice practice practice

Practice gives u qns n practice more give u answer

When u die , practice sleeping meditation

Sleeping is v much like dying

ESP open awareness

So practice open awareness

Eating n Smell Meditation


When u get smell, mind and nose together

Nose smell , mind also

Essence of meditation is awareness

B aware of smell that’s all

Breathe in feel smell

Breathe out , rest in open awareness

Eating Meditation

Relax body n mind.

When u eat, keep it longer in your mouth.

Chew well.

Move around in mouth.

Tongue with mind

Mind taste food. Mind b with taste

Pain meditation

For this we need pain

Gd for developing meditation

When u have pain, mind goes there even tho u tell yourself to forget abt it, let it go

Pain can draw attention

If u meditate w pain, even short time, benefit is more than u work with other techniques

What is pain? U know it?

Aware of pain, watch it feel it

-pain disappears so mind go to open awareness , stay w that

-pain changes from one place to another, gd, follow the pain. , that means pain becomes obj of meditation

-pain is just there n u continue to watch the pain, that means pain becomes obj of meditation

-pain becomes stronger. 2 reasons: your personality, mayb you have pain n that pain develop w u for a long time, so when u watch it there’s a lot of fear aversion resistance

So, if pain gets stronger, Watch the resistance to pain, not pain

Change focus , open awareness

  • awareness tells u u r doing the right thing

Why meditate?

  • fully liberate i.e. Achieve total freedom
  • Then y m I not free now?someone controlling u? Our monkey mind.
  • Happiness n suffering is only in mental state . When u have prob, u might think this is the worst prob in the world n u r the most unlucky person in the world n this is the end of the world . But your friend might look at u n laugh, u will b ok. E.g. Lose job , nun think it’s the worst thing in the world. It’s all the monkey mind , our mind is restless always active n always want to do smthg , our mind is like a crazy monkey always looking for job. The job is the problem

Your life is ok. Monkey mind worries, I don’t have job now , jobless . I have to make some jobs. When monkey mind looks for job, u look in mirror n see ur belly.  M I little fat? I think my belly is a little big. I think I m ugly. U think of big belly. Even if u at work, mind says to u, big belly.

If Aversion n attachment strong: conversation about big belly becomes stronger b bigger

Aversion n attachment is part of monkey mind

Monkey mind tell u big belly no gd

Next morning, u feel like belly is bigger.

Neurons in brain make groups, n get chatty n talks about the belly gets bigger

You go out, u feel as if pple r looking at your big belly

U feel ugly lose confidence get shy, don’t want to go out. Keep staring in mirror

You will think, big belly is biggest prob in the world

Watch how meditation help this.

Goal of meditation is achieve freedom n b at peace .

Achieve pliability n freedom of mind

Ways: listen to sound, b aware

By doing these,

mind become calm n peaceful

pliable n workable – freedom

Because if u tell mind to b peace it won’t b

N u r making friends w monkey mind. Need common interest to make friends

Monkey mind n u have common ground , find that n both of u will b happy

Win win situation

Results of Meditation

Thought meditation

Body like cup mind like water

Spine straight

And we saw a double rainbow outside! How auspicious and blessed!


Attachment has 2 things:



These 2 make attachment

Anything can b support for meditation as long as u have awareness

Don’t stay with the meditation experience, stay with the wish

Monkey mind likes job u like freedom

How do we achieve both goals

Give job to monkey mind

Monkey mind will b happy

U giving job, u r boss

Normally monkey mind is boss, nature of mind is restless , active

So u give job, but not full time at beginning

The job is meditation

Ask monkey mind : listen to sound

But a few seconds later forget

Don’t punish give reminder

That’s like part time job

Monkey mind cannot do full time now, in future maybe yes but not now

Slowly mind become calm n peaceful

At the same time pliable workable

Don’t need to block monkey mind

Thought meditation

Thought: has image n voice

Emotion has (bodily) sensation

Actually both have both

Thought: always some voice in your head

Even if u r alone outside

Thought voice image

How to practice?

Be aware of thought, of what u r thinking

Watch your thought – like u watching flower (body type), listening to sound (speech), like b aware of pain (mind type)

Just watch

No need follow

If u r confused, watch the confusion

That’s also thought

Needs thought

If too many thoughts go back to body sensation

Big Secret- when u watch thoughts, there will b 2 experience – u can; u cannot. Both r best meditation exp

If u cannot c , ur mind back to open awareness . No thought but has awareness

the moment watch it, it’s gone. Another thought comes, watch it n it’s gone. Mind cannot grab anything

If u watch , it’s like watching tv

Inner tv

When u r bored watch the inner tv

Prob is Programs r quite old

But if u watch old boring programs again n again, mind become more calm peaceful pliable

U don’t need to block thought

U c river, means u r out of river

If u fall in it n carried by it, u can’t c it


Watch it

Eyes look up

Up body keep cool


Walk w spine straight

Jumping yoga

gd for heart, blood pressure, whole body

In btw: resting , gd for open awareness

If not happy , panic , sad, pressured, angry, do this

Treat it like a game

Emotion Meditation

Easy bcoz it’s All abt awareness

How to b aware Is tricky, have to note impt issues

4 things

  • watch: bring mind into body watch sensation in body. Sometimes some parts of body has more sensation, e.g. anger may give rise to burning at heart, panic is like heart Speed up n can’t breathe, all these r strong emotions. Can also watch happy , joyful. When u watch, negative emotions lose power, positive emotions gain power, longer n clear.
  • Try something different: sometimes when u watch n emotion is too strong n u r overwhelmed, try smthg different. Just finished fighting with someone n u practice anger meditation, mayb u can mayb u can’t bcoz anger is too strong. So try others such as watch flower, smell, open awareness, sound whatever . E.g. Make another emotion. When I had panic , I couldn’t watch it. I created anger. Then watch anger. Slowly u will have habit of watching emotion thru another emotion
  • Step back: if the above still doesn’t work, bcoz there’s another emotion supporting your emotion. Emotion behind emotion, panic of panic. So look behind, watch the emotion behind it.
  • Take a break: if u r exhausted fr trying, don’t practice meditation. Sleep or exercise.



Monkey mind- made up of ignorance, aversion n attachment

If u watch river u can follow it no prob

Rinpoche’s teachings 7pm

Get lost meditation

Completely forget meditation n awareness

Can’t get lost? Mind does opp

Don’t need to meditate

It’s like using flashlight under the sun

Just get lost ! U don’t need to meditate

Subtle concepts of meditation- let it go so u can c awareness more clearly

50 hrs of homework

Level 2

Loving kindness n compassion

Also part of basic goodness

We all have these good qualities

Awareness is part of basic goodness

U have this 24/7 but u don’t recognize

Once u recognize awareness becomes alive

There r many good qualities within u

-e.g. Awareness: pure free genuine . Even if u watching the worst thought, u r free. Like sky space always free no matter how bad pollution n typhoon is.

-e.g. Love n compassion, with u all the time. There’s love n compassion behind every thought n emotion.

As u practice meditation u will have discovery all the time, this discovery doesn’t have limit.

Evidence: everything we do is towards happiness

Every blink of eye is to look for happiness


Each breath too

Sometimes happiness too small u don’t realize

Longingness desire to b happy


We r deserved to b happy n free fr suffering

Can b compared to homesickness

Our real home is our basic goodness our true nature or Buddha nature 佛性

Has lasting genuine happiness

How to connect


Now u need to nurture this feeling n expand

5 steps to practice:

  1. W yourself: we have loving kindness to ourselves. We care abt ourselves. Sometimes we don’t know. We want to b happy but most times we don’t know the real causes of happiness. We look for it on the outside. U may kill, say a lie , smile. U don’t know the real cause of happiness. Wish to b happy but don’t know how. You yourself too, right? Ask urself: What do u really want? Fr this u can see loving kindness compassion. There r layers. Go deep down n u can connect to your inner wisdom. Even u on the surface, every moment every breath u r looking for happiness. What do u want? How much do u want happiness? We don’t know the real cause of happiness . We want happiness but the actions we do always opposite . Wish yourself well: may I have happiness n it’s causes
  2. W someone u like: find someone with no strong conflicting emotion e.g. Grandparents grandchildren pet . That person is same as u, wish to b happy don’t want to suffer, every breath every moment every action. Sometimes don’t know cause of happiness sometimes make mistakes bcoz listen to monkey mind. That person is also lovable. May he or she have happiness n it’s causes.
  3. Neutral person- expand to someone u don’t know. That person same as u. wish to b happy don’t want to suffer, every breath every moment every action. Sometimes don’t know cause of happiness sometimes make mistakes. That person is also lovable. May he or she have happiness n it’s causes.
  4. Someone u don’t like: if u practice short time, benefit is a lot. That person whom u don’t like is same as u, wish to b happy don’t want to suffer, every breath every moment every action. Sometimes don’t know cause of happiness sometimes make mistakes , maybe already make problems for u. That’s to u. But another person may look at this person as if he is a best friend. Like u too. We all make mistakes but at heart we want to do good. That person is also lovable. May he or she have happiness n it’s causes.
  5. All beings – immeasurable loving kindness compassion . We all want to b happy don’t want to suffer. All beings the same, friends family pple u like or don’t like. No matter what culture colour etc but we normally consider these small differences as big ones n we forget the important thing- we all are the same. We all don’t want to suffer, every breath every moment every eye blink. Person across the ocean same as u. Not just person, your pet too. All beings the same. Most of time, we don’t know causes of happiness but we make causes of sufferings. So may all beings have happiness n it’s causes n b free of suffering and it’s causes. Send your love n compassion to all beings. Beings r immeasurable. So ur compassion become immeasurable

Start from yourself or someone you like. After that then do all beings.

To reduce smthg, such as smoking, make a plan. Gradually reduce. To make new habit u need 20-30 days.  In one or two days, go to mountain n change things, your muscles. The power of awareness is v powerful. Can go to your body, muscles etc

Bring awareness into this. And when u smoke , what is the belief u have?aware of the triggers, sensation in your body when you want to or is smoking.

Realization u never know. Until u reach certain level. So if u practice sometimes u don’t c your improvement.

Day one to 30 . Look back fr day 30. Some change. What u describe is still experience.

Knowing is still experience.  Meditation experience changes.

If u swim rest of life can swim

Realization is like that

Love: look for someone nice smthg gd smthg beneficial

Once u get that u want to associate w that

Kind: u c sweetness, feeling of cuteness, tenderness

Compassion: u want to b free fr prob suffering without pain n obstacles

Loving kindness is looking for happiness

Compassion is wanting to b free fr suffering

5 things u appreciate :

  1. I appreciate that I have this life.
  2. I appreciate all the experiences I have up to this point in life
  3. I appreciate that I m here at this point in time with what I have at this point
  4. I appreciate my ability to write
  5. I appreciate having the opportunity to meet you , to receive teachings and to get to know awareness a little bit more
  6. I appreciate myself n I appreciate that you will answer my question

Everyday appreciate 3 things.

Country family world environment friends work

When u feel gratitude towards so many things, u will receive lots of good things everywhere anytime

QnA with Rinpoche

When u wake up feeling negative, right in heart n throat, bring mind to body. Feel body n sensation in body . Be aware of all the sensations. Try with arms n legs then slowly get to sensation of chest or heart or panicky feeling which is stronger.

Joy Teaching

  1. Immeasurable loving kindness
  2. Immeasurable compassion
  3. Immeasurable joy
  4. Immeasurable equanimity

Choose someone u like n u see gd things within that person.

Then someone u don’t know

Choose someone u don’t like

They all have wisdom awareness live kindness compassion. Mayb they don’t know. Everybody want to do gd.

Scientists are studying basic innate gdness with children

6 mths old n try to test for basic gdness

Let child see cartoon- w hatred n loving kindness

Child like cartoon w loving kindness w facial expressions n eye movements

You’ve born w loving kindness n compassion

But we don’t know

Even if u go deep in a anger, the deepest level is loving kindness compassion

Anger come fr loving kindness compassion but monkey mind take it as anger

If u recognize that anger comes fr loving kindness compassion you don’t have to block or suppress it. Anger will b liberated

Just recognize that anger come fr loving kindness compassion,

Self liberation

Poison transforms into medicine


It’s actually v easy so close to us it becomes difficult

U can appreciate gd things fr enemies fr all beings

Immeasurable joy

Rejoice n appreciate

You can discover gd things

New things come to u


The loving kindness compassion that is with you all the time


If u have immeasurable loving kindness compassion joy, it becomes immeasurable equanimity

How to practice?

Just watch

Level 1- form sound …..

25 hours

Thought n emotion n getting lost meditation

25 hours

Sometimes quality no gd get lost ten minutes still can count

How to apply meditation in everyday life?

2 things we need- formal meditation n informal meditation

  1. Formal- above homework , everyday ten to 20 minutes , start little. To build new habit it takes 20-30 days. You can’t change suddenly. Change bit by bit. E.g. Brushing teeth shower. Just finished like that because of habit. We all r lazy. We don’t have so much capabilities to make new effort but there’s a trick ! Make it daily habit and u can do a lot of things ! 50 hours
  2. Informal meditation- u can do anywhere anytime but again u need to build habit. Associate w something such as toilet, writing, mala. Anytime u go toilet u remember your meditation! Build up habit associated with meditation. Every time u open refrigerator or go to kitchen. See which thing U do a lot everyday n associate that w meditation. Everyday get lost 30 times . More get lost is better. Count. These don’t count towards homework. Is bonus.

Refuge- longingness to hold on to smthg to make complete

External -Buddha dharma sangha

Internal – absolute refuge, our Buddha nature, or basic goodness, wisdom awareness loving kindness compassion.

Real Buddha in us, recognize believe n practice this confidence

After taking refuge what do u do,

Accept Buddha (guide) dharma (path) sangha (friend)

Try to b kind. Good heart b kind helpful according to your capability

Fail more better because u try.

Guide yourself- believe yourself don’t get influenced by negativity. Use your own wisdom capabilities experience don’t just follow. Take yourself as value. Try.


Everything is impermanent.

So is our retreat .

That is our life.

But all the wisdom n experience is with you forever.

How do u practice in everyday life.

Problem is really precious.

My panic is v precious n one of my best teacher my best friend.

I learn a lot from my panic.

Went to retreat for 3 yrs n learn a lot.

All practice is how to make friends w our problems.

I m lazy n I try to get rid n block my panic.

Lazy n panic become gd friend.

Accept n b with panic n still can develop meditation.

Use panic as support for meditation for loving kindness emptiness wisdom.

Can use panic for so many things.

Why not?

Then u can accept.

After a while panic becomes source of joy.

Symptoms still there in body but u feel happy in mind

Panic n me become v gd friend

Use same meditation techniques with life.

Learn fr the experience of gg to die

Cannot see hear body paralyze

Almost unconscious

Suddenly mind become so clear no monkey mind no concepts no up no down no time

5/6 hrs then I come back

After coming back so much gratitude n appreciation

Street become my home

Now all so perfect so nice

So precious so appreciate

I stand up I can stand up

Feel thirsty

Go to fetch water but unconscious

No awareness

But almost die awareness still have

In your life everything is wonderful

That’s when u lost more

When u have problems u will have more practice for meditation

In Tibet in mountain fresh air n water

If u don’t need to look for prob, problems come n look for u, how wonderful.

Meditators have to come down fr mountain, to look for problems. For u free problems in life. How wonderful !

When u have problems , how?

Transform into awareness, lobby ng kindness compassion, wisdom

When u have prob there is opportunity to grow, discover n to adventure

Meditate short time is v helpful for u to grow in the process

4 tools :

  1. Be aware- Physical sensation, try something different, watch flower , listen to sound , b aware of taste, smell . Make another emotion, open awareness. Step back. Take a break. Joy of living level 1. Everything support for meditation.
  2. Level 2. Understand that not only u in this situation. Everyone is like you. May all beings prob b my problem. May my problem rep the beings. That prob purify negativity n have virtue. Transform hatred attachment jealousy anger etc into loving kindness compassion. When I have this anger I won’t b at peace . Those who have these won’t b happy like me. May all beings hatred come to me. Then they can b free. Your hatred then becomes meaningful. Don’t have to suppress your hatred. Transform hatred into loving kindness compassion.
  3. Joy of living level 3. Emptiness. Ask a qns, who is angry at who? I m emptiness, the opp is emptiness, the feeling is emptiness . So anger is transformed for a few seconds. Then may come back even stronger. But u can practice. Again n again . Then slowly everything become liberated n you r trained for wisdom
  4. Path to liberation. Rest n don’t have to do anything. Don’t have to watch transform ask qns. Just rest . B with the space. With space u don’t have to do anything w cloud. Space it’s nature is free fr cloud n pollution.

You need to change tools to use.

You may think still have monkey mind, no emotions, try to block river. Don’t try to expect smthg special extraordinary, awareness is with u all the time.

If u raise hand n know it that’s awareness.

That’s all.

Real joy contentment will develop within u. Wisdom love n compassion clarity u become smarter. U grow.

When u meditate it’s gd for knowledge wisdom too

Life becomes meaningful joyful happy anytime anywhere

Joy of Living.

Really have liberation n freedom.


Finish the homework.

Dedication: heart of practice

Good motivation

Make meaning when u gg to meditate, intention for meaningful purpose, why do u want to meditate?

Meaning: Not for yourself only. For friend family pet

To change world we need to change ourselves

When u meditate, start by bringing peace to yourself n family. So anyone related to u can feel peace

Finally let this benefit world

End of meditation dedicate, if no dedication there r 4 obstacles.

  • regret – show off – anger – wrong understanding

If u dedicate, even if these 4 happen, virtue don’t go down

Dedicate is like pressing save in the computer

What’s the dedication?

  1. Non conceptual dedication – high level
  2. Dedication following others who have high level of accomplishment- we imitate, like Buddha enlightened being dedicate just like how these beings dedicate. Purpose- to have happiness n to b free fr suffering. Final destination to b free- dedicate to all beings to b free
  3. Dedicate for others- like putting money in a gd bank


Power is within u

Empowerment is To tell u that u r the power, u r the Buddha

He is rich but u don’t know u r rich

U have diamond but u don’t know

If u recognize ur diamond u can use it

Each of u is unique

You r more smart kind capable than u think of

It’s for u to recognize your goodness


Imagine Jin gang sa duo infront of u

It’s wisdom always with u


Why get this empowerment ?

To benefit yourself friends family society n followers

You r here as represent for many beings

Benefit others

Help all beings recognize our true nature

The diamond in our heart n mind

Like vajrasattva

Main part of empowerment

Imagine yourself as bodhisattva

Your nature n V nature is sane

U r enlightened being u r rich u don’t know tats y u begging food

U don’t know u have diamond

I didn’t know until today

I m enlightened being

I m vajrasattva

Just like moon reflections in the lake, or a rainbow in the sky

U can c but not real

If u practice like that, gd for shamatha meditation bcoz u have to use awareness

Gd for vipassana emptiness practice

Form is emptiness emptiness is form

Loving kindness compassion practice to benefit beings

Benefit the recognition of your true nature- feel alive in your body n mind of your qualities- all the enlightened qualities compassion loving kindness etc within u

Imagination has power

If u think u r running, your muscles will b in the mindset to run

Use this imagination to liberate

Feel the presence of enlightened being wisdom capabilities enlightened mind speech right here right now

Benefit negativity accumulate virtue n positivity


U know durian

What is it like? Can remember clearly ?

Relax think of image shape colour sensations of vajrasattva

U do imagination all the time

Home what is home

Feel the presence of the enlightened being


In the midst of observing, we sometimes have thoughts . There r also some of categorize them. But they seem to radiate fr where somewhere deeper n is always a positive affirmation or inspiration. For example , I was doing sight mediation and in the middle of it, a deeper voice say: how wonderful! To B.B. in a room where pple are world ng hard for spiritual growth! It makes me want to grab every chance to work harder because time keeps running away.

What exactly are these? These feelings that come fr a deeper place. Obviously the answer is not to b attached, but do we count these as little realization?


How do u identify realization

Real significance of keeping spine straight

How to teach children

How did y feel before embarking on retreat

What was your biggest discovery or learning . How did the retreat inspire or change u



The opportunity of getting a human life

Pieces like this remind me of what is important. 

Words anchor me n bring me back to sanity.

I also want to touch on another aspect of appreciating human life, one that has to do with realizing the difficulty of finding this human life. The Buddha used an example to describe just how rare it is to obtain this human life. He was asked by a king, “How many human beings from the lower suffering realms will be able to come up to the wonderful human life that you talk about?” The Buddha looked around and saw a big mirror. He picked up a handful of peas and threw them at the mirror, and all the peas fell down. Buddha said that the chances of getting a precious human life are even less than the chance of any peas sticking to the mirror.
And then there is a very famous example in which the Buddha said that if this whole continent became a huge ocean, and within that ocean you had a yoke floating on the waves and a blind tortoise that popped up once every five hundred years, the chances of obtaining precious human birth would be equal to the chances of that blind tortoise emerging with his head poking through the yoke.

Actually, the life we have is not just a gift; it didn’t just happen to you. You have earned this life—this opportunity, this capability and potential for the ultimate achievement of enlightenment. You have earned it because of the great karma you have accumulated. According to the teachings, the basis of that karma is a pure morality.

Practice Like Your Hair’s on Fire


Drop your feelings

I miss my teacher!

And just when I needed it most, the universe seems to know and I get messages like these!

A short drop-in practice from Tsoknyi Rinpoche.

Relax deeply. Don’t hold onto anything. Completely let go of thinking and judging mind while gently maintaining the clarity and knowing aspects of mind.
Now raise your arms to shoulder height, pause, and let them drop suddenly to your knees. As you drop your arms, breathe out forcefully. Then say, “Who cares? So what? Svaha!” (Svaha is a Sanskrit word used frequently in mantras that means “So be it.”)
Whatever happens, wherever you land after dropping your arms, just let it be. Don’t do or try to block anything. Just rest. There is no need to search for something new or try to achieve some special insight or state.
Feel whatever feelings and sensations arise and be lightly aware of them. Feel them naturally and softly, and don’t try to change anything. When uncomfortable feelings come up, you can relax and trust them, without analyzing or somehow figuring them out. Let them be as they are through feeling awareness while resting naturally in the body.
This practice can be repeated until you can more fully drop into your body and feelings.

How to Drop Into Your Body & Feelings


A very compelling read

Just as every single thing is always moving inexorably closer to its ultimate dissolution, so also your own life, like a burning butterlamp, will soon be consumed. It would be foolish to think that you can first finish all your work and then retire to spend the later stages of your life practicing the Dharma. Can you be certain that you will live that long? Does death not strike the young as well as the old? No matter what you are doing, therefore, remember death and keep your mind focused on the Dharma….
A hunted criminal never has a tranquil moment. He is always alert, urgently devising a thousand schemes to escape the punishment that awaits him. You will never find him drawing plans for his future house. How can you rest when death threatens to strike at any moment? From now on, your sole recourse must be the practice of Dharma. There is no other way to turn death into something favorable….
There is a right time for everything. Farmers know when the time has come to plow, to sow, or to harvest, and they never fail to do each job when it is necessary. Now that you are in full possession of your faculties, have met a teacher, and have received his instructions, will you let the field of liberation lie uncultivated?….
Most people, thinking of the future, make a lot of plans — but the future they plan for is only the very few years of this life. This is very shortsighted; we have such a long way to go in lives to come. Death is just the threshold, which we have to cross alone, aided only by our faith in the teacher and the Three Jewels and by our confidence in the practice.
Relatives, friends, power, wealth, and whatever else we have become so used to relying on will simply no longer be there. So if you waste your life now on endless minor tasks, you can be sure that at the time of death you will weep with regret and be stricken with intense anxiety, like a thief who has just been thrown into jail and anxiously anticipates his punishment.
A person might find himself with nothing to eat, no clothes to wear, and no house to live in; but if his mind is filled with faith in his teacher and the Three Jewels, that person will both live and die with his heart always joyful and content.
– Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche – On The Path to Enlightenment by Matthieu Ricard – Shambhala Publications


Fail Better

The Fine Art of Failing
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Pema Chodron, Fail, Liza Matthews, Buddhadharma, Lion’s Roar, Buddhism

Photo by Liza Matthews.

In her commencement speech at Naropa University, Pema Chödrön explains that if there’s one thing we all need to practice, it’s how to fail well.
When Naropa asked me for the topic of my talk, I decided not to give it to them because I thought if I did, they wouldn’t let me do it! My talk is inspired by a quote from Samuel Beckett that goes like this: “Fail. Fail again. Fail better.” I thought if there is one skill that is not stressed very much but is really needed, it is knowing how to fail well. The fine art of failing.
There is a lot of emphasis on succeeding. And whether we buy the hype or not, we all want to succeed, especially if you consider success as “it works out the way I want it to.” You know it feels good in the gut and in the heart because it worked out. So failing, by that definition, is that it didn’t work out the way you wanted it to.
And failing is what we don’t usually get a lot of preparation for.
I think if there is one thing that prepares you for having some idea of how to work with the rawness of things not working out the way you want them to, it would be contemplative education. You have gotten a lot of instruction and encouragement and support for feeling how things impact you—not just going down the tubes with it but actually taking responsibility for what is happening to you and having some tools about how to work with painful feelings, raw feelings.
So fail, fail again, fail better. It’s how to get good at holding the rawness of vulnerability in your heart.
From Fail, Fail Again, Fail Better, Sounds True, September 2015