We should do this exercise as much as we can
To rest n be at complete ease in awareness
Rather than to be lured by our habits n indulge in emotions
This forms the basis of “coming full circle”.
I thought offering you a leaf from our marriage would help u deal with your own relationships.
I have been feeling giddy n daddy never asked me how I was till today.
Then when he did, he says all I need is a massage.
I said I need love.
Daddy says love was never taken away from me.
And I think my replies r full of wisdom:
Love must blossom, grow n strengthen to nourish a family. And, it needs to b expressed. I think the level of expression, understanding n communication could have been better. Only then can there b some kind of natural appreciation . ESP with kids, only when we r at harmony, the love will flow n nourish them naturally. You need to show it to me n to the kids. Then they will show us. Basic things like kissing gd night or saying I love u. Like showing care n concern. We all want to b loved dearly. It’s just that simple.
We have to learn to keep a dating relationship alive. That is the basis or foundation of our other roles as parents, husband n wife, soulmates etc
The world is so big , but it is oso so small Bcoz we only have each other ultimately.
My head is heavier than the rest of the body.
It has been spinning since Sunday . The balance inside me can tip anytime, sometimes when I lie down. Sometimes when I m sitting. Sometimes when I m standing. I seem to be falling sideways.
There seems to be a clutch somewhere , locking me.
My breath is heavy.
My eyes r droopy.
I m panting n sleepy.
I m So so so tired.
Feels like I m going to shut down.
It’s been such a long while since I felt this way.
What is happening? Why?
As I search for answers, an inner voice asked my to search inwards:
-have I taxed myself too much? I have not taken good care of myself, I did not listen to my body whilst taking care of children.
For some time, I felt quite alone at managing the kids
I think I need help from the daddy to share my load. Yes!
– what is thrown off balance ? I guessed the anger got the better of me. Anger towards daddy’s ways n his lack of explanation n communication with me.
I think I used up too much energy unwittingly.then I was Distressed at not being understood.
Deep down, my desire is for daddy to b caring to me. To be gentle n understanding just like when we were dating.
No wonder when I visited ah ma, she reminds me, that I should reach a consensus with daddy that daddy should b fully understanding of me n take better care of me than before.
-then awareness told me to stop worrying n just use awareness : observe that, befriend that feeling
-I m not going to use the same reactions as that of the past
– it’s coming full circle: I m just acquainting with it one last time n I m going to use my resolve to face it unlike the past
Thank u spinning head.
For strengthening my practice! I m determined .
There was one day when I felt a change in my body.
that change was gentle as can be, nonetheless , I felt it
I feel my body opening up, changing for the better.
If you met you, will you like you
If u want something u have never had, then u have to do something u have never done.
U will find that it is necessary to let things go : simply for the reason that they r heavy.
To b outstanding , get comfortable with being uncomfortable.
If in ten years, you were to look at yourself today, what would you change?
To become optimistic, practice being optimistic. To become brave, practice daily bravery. Etc
You become like the five people you spend the most time with. Choose wisely.
Whatever comes up for you, just be open n present to it and let it go.
Do u have time to listen to yourself ? Your suffering? Your difficulties n your deepest desires?
Don’t let yourself be controlled by three things: your past. people. money.
When you find yourself facing obstacles that appear to be blocking you from your goals, it is important to try not to get discouraged. It can be easy to feel “stuck” or that “life” is creating circumstances preventing you from getting what you want. And while it is easy to look at everyone and everything outside of ourselves for the problem, perhaps even wanting to “get rid” of the person, object, or circumstance we may feel is blocking us, sometimes the best course of action to take may be to look inside ourselves first.
It is amazing how often we can get in our own way without even being aware that we are doing so. Even though we truly want to succeed, there are many reasons why we may sometimes block our own efforts. It may be that we are afraid to succeed, so we subconsciously create circumstances to keep ourselves stuck. Or it may even be that we are afraid that we will succeed, so we block ourselves by making the achievement of our goals more difficult than they really are. We may even approach our goals in a way that keeps creating the same unsuccessful results.
If you believe that you’ve been standing in your own way, you may want to take a piece of paper and record how you’ve done so. Write down the choices you’ve made that have hindered your efforts and the fears that may have prompted you to make these decisions. Take note of any thoughts and feelings that arise. It is important to be gentle and compassionate during this process. Try not to blame yourself for getting in your own way. Remember the choices we make always are there to serve us, until it is time to let them go. When you are finished, throw the paper away while setting an intention that you are getting rid of any obstacles you’ve created to block yourself. You can then let yourself start again with a clean slate. Doubts and fears are going to be natural, but with this new awareness, you should be able to prevent yourself from subconsciously thwarting yourself. Besides, now that you’ve decided to get out of your own way, the part of you that has always wanted to succeed can now do so.