with baby, there really seems to b less me-time, but i m sure with proper time management, like now
i can stiil have time of my own n let down the responsibilities of being a mother n
the frustration of sitting thru the confinement period
all these seem a bit heavy alreadi….i m losing my patience
刚才在吃饭,因为心里想的是baby,我想喂饱她再吃,但ah hui 却要我先吃,我束着腰,怎么吃得下?三菜一汤啊!
我知道是为我好,怕我饿,但有时是不是可以站在我的立场,感受一下,这样吃饭的滋味?
不是什么都可以为求方便而做的。
好。我吃。
虽然我不愿意。
吃饭的侍侯,心里想的是baby,万一她醒来腰吃奶,怎么办?
所以很自然的,i started leaking,till the blouse got very wet。
gorgor看到了,说:“不知道漏这么多,等下baby腰的时候还有没有?”
我发火了,我说:“不用担心,一定有!就是要它漏,身体才会制造新鲜的奶水”
她静下来。
i shut her off。
忍不住了,but i dont feel good either。she has been doing so so so so so so so so so so so soso so so so so soso so so so so soso so so so so soso so so so so soso so so so so soso so so so so soso so so so so soso so so so so soso so so so so soso so so so so so much for baby n me tat i m crying now,感觉很内疚,there she is doing sso much for me,washing me n baby’s clothes,doing alot of marketing,serving me food right up to me⋯⋯⋯⋯waking up in the middle of the nite to carry baby whilst i sleep⋯⋯⋯⋯worrying more than i,
but,
sometimes being overly concerned becomes a burden to me。
i have to spend time n effort pacifying their concerns。most of which are unfounded。
i can understand its becoz they have no experience with breastfed babies,but this is too much of a test on my patience,i simply have no more energy to address these。
worst,they r not convinced abt wat i say, till a second party says so。
so,wat can i do?他们继续的担心doesnt do me good!
有时觉得,我虽然是妈妈,但不能做任何决定。
mayb i reali still don know baby well enough,but i m quite sure,i know her better than any of them。
after all,she has been with me for 10 months。
of course, there will b times when i m wrong,
but i feel i m not given the chance to have a say。
or,
very simply put,to b a mother。
hence, baby is always hungry,便便怎么总是水水的、 他们最担心的就是baby吃不饱,为什么我挤出来的奶水这么少???
纵然解释了N次,还是一样担心??!!!
我觉得我疲于应付。
n its another typical case of “too many cooks spoil the soup”
太多声音在讲话,在说一些认为是最好、最有用处的意见。当然,都是善意。但善意也要用在适当的地方。
我一直听一直听,尝试去接受、试验大家的好意,让大家知道我的感激,
但毕竟,我不是他们,适合别人的,不一定可以放在我的身上,我懂,但他们不了解。
于是,我一直忙着做一些让别人开心的事,但我自己一点也不。感觉自己变成只是一部造奶的机器⋯⋯
几天下来,再也忍受不了,容易走火!
i think the way is to
say,
gently wat i like or dont
to reali juz say/share knowledge i have read,
如果他们听得进当然好,否则,我也只有stand by自己认为是正确的做法了。
啊,好累。
but i shan’t let these take away the joy of motherhood。
baby今天11天大了!
:)
她喜欢嘴巴嘟嘟。手脚打很有力的拳。
一双乌溜溜的眼睛看着你⋯⋯⋯⋯
不知道在想什么 :)
啊,她的肚脐昨天掉了!