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3 years 8 months

亲爱的宝贝

mommy今天下班回家,看到一个妈妈牵着小儿子在我的前面走着。然后我想到小时候我抱着你,你只是我的手那么长的时候,我想起抱着你的感觉还有你婴儿的香味,每次还会想要抱着你,不管我手上提取多少重量,或者我多么累。我还是会想起。

比如周末我上巴刹,回来的路上会经过我在你小时候抱着你上巴刹,回来经过的路。我会让你抬头看着被树叶遮盖的天,然后让你感觉,我每一步走着,天变得不一样。

我会唱:“每一步,不一样,每一步,不一样。”

我希望有一天你需要时,记得这段话。每一步走得好,走得稳,走得脚踏实地,每一步就不一样。日后会带给你很多的不一样。

想起,然后自己也消失在回忆里。好珍贵的想起。

有一天,皓皓说:“mommy,早上公公载我去学校就好,我自己去。”

我吓一跳。问你:“为什么?”

你说:“因为皓皓长大了。”

好快!感受到你长大的速度,让我想争取时间回来跟你一起长大。多么珍贵啊。

宝贝在学校的美术作业,好好看!

 

 

皓皓早上做的蛋糕:)

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去香港的早上,

皓皓抱着我的大腿,大哭不让我走,让姐姐在一旁也眼湿湿。强行让daddy抱着皓皓,他费了很大的力气,然后把门关上。皓皓哭着,把门打开。

我不喜欢这样的感觉。

its just not right

there must be a better way of doing things

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一周后去香港,沁芝发高烧,皓皓也有些不舒服。

还好有奶吗,舍不得离开。皓皓送我到门口,然后在铁门一直看着跟我挥手,我走了一段路,然后回来亲亲他。

然后他一直看着我,到我走到电梯才转身离开。我回头去看,他已经关门。

所谓长大就是这样吧,就是渐渐离开。

所谓变老就是这样吧。

所谓父母与孩子之间,就是这样吧。

皓皓假期也有功课:)

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这一天,带孩子们去植物园,喂鱼,玩耍。大家有绿油油的空间,不需要太多,只是跑,已经很快乐

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过后去尝尝新开的Pizza Express,饭前有得玩colouring,还有他们喜欢的dough balls蘸蒜头牛油

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这是皓皓给车子建造的马路

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沁芝的学校第一次庆祝中秋,皓皓一起去凑热闹

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皓皓做了几件事,让mommy很骄傲。

比如看到厕所的厕纸没了,皓皓会自己跑到储藏室,找出一卷,然后摆到厕所里,摆放厕纸的地方。

看到kitchen towels没了,也会自己到储藏室去找新的。

夜里睡觉,皓皓会爬起来,自己盖被时,也问:“mommy你有被吗?然后帮我盖被,到颈项的位置。”

让mommy真的很窝心。

晚饭时间,皓皓喜欢看Peppa Pig。我说,吃饭的时间到了,皓皓于是把电视关了,直接到餐桌上来。

好了不起!

这一天,皓皓带姐姐去搭校车,回来时捡了一片绿叶给我。让我想起在韩国的街上,他也这么做,然后延续至今。

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宝贝,祝福你,健康平安快乐!

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7years 7 months

宝贝,经常这么笑好吗?

不管是什么时候。

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我记得我去香港那个早上,皓皓大哭,抱着我的脚不让我去。沁芝只是在餐桌上,若无其事,但眼眶泛泪。

沁芝就是这么样,不敢把自己放在前面。

所以总是让弟弟,总是压抑自己。沁芝啊,其实最重要的人就是你自己。

你要知道你自己有多么宝贝啊。

宝贝生病了,好心疼。沁芝依然安安静静的,肚子痛也不敢说,特别叫人心疼,mommy心急到跑厕所拉两回。

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沁芝生病,高烧到39/40摄氏度,一直哭喊腹痛。

还好有阿姨婆婆照顾

从pasir ris回来,在地铁上看到一个妈妈和女儿的互动,看妈妈帮女儿绑头发,想起不让沁芝留长头发。

看了很被触动

我小时候也想把头发留长的

沁芝也是这样想的,她不想理发,喘大气喘了快一个月了,压力大

的样子。

我为什么这么霸道,就因为贪方便就不让沁芝做她想要做的事情呢?

我下定决心,要让沁芝留长头发。

问自己,mummy做工好吗?沁芝说:“不好,因为我要hug hug mommy。”

沁芝看公公拍护照的照片,也想玩一玩,阿妹阿姨当然得呼应她的要求。

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这一天,去植物园,小妞好漂亮,玩得脸蛋通红!之后去吃Pizza Express,她很喜欢。

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一起玩接送!皓皓扮成司机接载姐姐,沁芝的ukelele是karyn姐姐送的

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和同学去看舞台剧《三只小猪》

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学校今年首次举办中秋节庆祝会,带皓皓出席。这是沁芝和皓皓第一次在学校提灯笼。过后回家的路上看到圆圆的十六月亮,问沁芝:“会不会记得今天的月亮?”

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沁芝的spelling,很喜欢看沁芝的画画,每次在正规的事项,比如spelling上面,总是可以看到沁芝另外的发挥:)

 

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亲爱的宝贝,mommy要怎么让你知道?每次你压抑的自己,才是这个世界上最重要的人。

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I feel happy reading it

My face broke into a smile.

Sixteen Small Steps to Happiness

1. push yourself to get up before the rest of the world – start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise.
2. push yourself to fall asleep earlier – start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable.
3. erase processed food from your diet. start with no lollies, chips, biscuits, then erase pasta, rice, cereal, then bread. use the rule that if a child couldn’t identify what was in it, you don’t eat it.
4. get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else.
5. stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything. 
6. buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.
7. buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small. 
8. strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.
9. organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.
10. have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.
11. push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.
12. message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.
14. think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything. 
15. become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.
16. lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you. 

-EmmaElsworthy.com

The Artidote

artwork by Lisen Haglund

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Roald Dahl!

Roald Dahl would have been 100 years old today.

He was one of my favourite authors when I was in school , i remember going to mph to read/buy his books.

His children’s books have been read and treasured by children and adults alike around the world, and he has been referred to as “one of the greatest storytellers for children of the 20th century”.

Lexicographer Dr Susan Rennie stated that Dahl built his new words on familiar sounds, saying:

He didn’t always explain what his words meant, but children can work them out because they often sound like a word they know, and he loved using onomatopoeia.

For example, you know that something lickswishy and delumptious is good to eat, whereas something uckyslush or rotsome is not definitely not! He also used sounds that children love to say, like squishous and squizzle, or fizzlecrump and fizzwiggler.

Here are 10 of Roald Dahl’s greatest quotes:

If a person has ugly thoughts, it begins to show on the face. And when that person has ugly thoughts every day, every week, every year, the face gets uglier and uglier until it gets so ugly you can hardly bear to look at it.

A person who has good thoughts cannot ever be ugly. You can have a wonky nose and a crooked mouth and a double chin and stick-out teeth, but if you have good thoughts they will shine out of your face like sunbeams and you will always look lovely.

  • The Twits

Never do anything by halves if you want to get away with it. Be outrageous. Go the whole hog. Make sure everything you do it so completely crazy it’s unbelievable.

  • Matilda
  • A little nonsense, now and then, is relished by the wisest men.

    • Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

    I understand what you’re saying, and your comments are valuable, but I’m gonna ignore your advice.

    – Fantastic Mr Fox

    Most of the really exciting things we do in our lives scare us to death. They wouldn’t be exciting if they didn’t.

    • Danny, The Champion of the World

    If I were a headmaster I would get rid of the history teacher and get a chocolate teacher instead.

    • Roald Dahl
    • The secret of life is to become very very good at somethin’ that’s very very ‘ard to do.

      • The Hitch-hiker

      Those who don’t believe in magic will never find it.

      • The Minpins
      • The matter with human beans is that they is absolutely refusing to believe in anything unless they is actually seeing it right in front of their own schnozzles.

        • The BFG

        A person is a fool to become a writer. His only compensation is absolute freedom. He has no master except his own soul, and that, I am sure, is why he does it.

        • Roald Dahl

http://indy100.independent.co.uk/article/roald-dahls-10-most-wonderful-quotes–W1RDauEkYW

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The opportunity of getting a human life

Pieces like this remind me of what is important. 

Words anchor me n bring me back to sanity.

I also want to touch on another aspect of appreciating human life, one that has to do with realizing the difficulty of finding this human life. The Buddha used an example to describe just how rare it is to obtain this human life. He was asked by a king, “How many human beings from the lower suffering realms will be able to come up to the wonderful human life that you talk about?” The Buddha looked around and saw a big mirror. He picked up a handful of peas and threw them at the mirror, and all the peas fell down. Buddha said that the chances of getting a precious human life are even less than the chance of any peas sticking to the mirror.
And then there is a very famous example in which the Buddha said that if this whole continent became a huge ocean, and within that ocean you had a yoke floating on the waves and a blind tortoise that popped up once every five hundred years, the chances of obtaining precious human birth would be equal to the chances of that blind tortoise emerging with his head poking through the yoke.

Actually, the life we have is not just a gift; it didn’t just happen to you. You have earned this life—this opportunity, this capability and potential for the ultimate achievement of enlightenment. You have earned it because of the great karma you have accumulated. According to the teachings, the basis of that karma is a pure morality.

Practice Like Your Hair’s on Fire