今年1月的post：Because sometimes you have to step outside of the person you’ve been, and remember the person you were meant to be, the person you wanted to be, the person you are.
我的感觉，是同样的一个人，我想做一个write what i mean， to inspire and to touch的 writer.
公司和上司对我的不器重，让我觉得自己在浪费时间。为了满足自己对热忱的追求，我必须割舍与孩子的时间，我必须熬夜累坏身子。我觉得that’s not a good deal。继续下去，只会累坏自己。太傻了。
But 35 is such a milestone, TPY. I know u have fought hard, and so beautifully dear.
Continue to follow your heart in the days ahead, i wish you happiness, i wish you bliss, i wish you to be well n happy. you definitely deserve all that you asked for. continue to have high expectations of yourself. continue to better yourself in ways more than one. Continue to discover n wonder. Be a light upon yourself and others. I wish you love and lots to share.
continue to follow your heart 是什么？
I simply couldn’t take myself away. Yesterday n tomorrow. London and beyond. Everything about life is here. And what is real? The tangibles you touch and the structures you live in? Or the untouchables that follow u every step of the way? Totally in love with the reflections and changing lights. But what is amazing you ask? It’s NOW.
我喜欢自己对饮食的领悟-food is good, if and only if, it brings you places. You will have to visit somewhere in an instant, in a bite. Good food is emotional.
我喜欢去香港碰到的故事-you stumble upon things. The awesome stuff, or people, life changing events, you stumble upon a chance. Then, chances… You have to (stumble) in order to reach or realize the connection. They find you, not the other way round. Such is the magic of travel.
比如what is now proved was once imagined
To be an artist is to believe in life
A work of art which did not begin in emotion is not art.
Luxury is to have time to breakfast.我喜欢slow juicing
我喜欢我的领悟：how priceless, what we already have is
喜欢看皓皓玩，把奶瓶当笔，地板当画纸。so fun！wished I could still play like that. Without care.
沁芝画画：Just as it had worked for me, I hope art will, and always be a sense of fulfillment for QinZhi. An organic form of expression, as well, working with oneself from within and a means of navigating the world. Qinzhi’s first art piece .
Each other– it occurred to me that this is the best gift I can ever afford to give to each of them.
I feel v privileged whenever I see chefs at work. I noticed chefs often have big, thick hands, but it’s really amazing when these hands do the littlest of things, the attention to detail can light up another life.
Where can you find that?this lust for life, the spontaneity, the enthusiasm.
把newsmaker弄哭：In the midst of an interview today, in the midst of sharing, the news maker was so touched he teared. I treasure these moments . They are so so short lived but so very very REAL. The picture he saw , the history he went through. Tastes of long ago. So much time, in a few f-l-e-e-t-i-n-g moments.
抱着皓皓：son. friend. Teacher.
沁芝做gok zai：小时候快过年，奶妈会自制蛋卷、gok zai、发糕、年糕。
With age, u find yourself getting
(a) more vulnerable.
用manduca抱着皓皓：naughty little pretty little thing
搭电梯碰到另一个家长：Taking QinZhi down to the school bus every morning is such an awakening experience. Parents carry , some push in strollers their precious sleeping babes, also to rush to school then off to work. The brief conversation in the lift reveals difficulties n challenges each faces. And you get the sense that life isn’t easy, for yourself n everyone else. And you arrive at the wisdom that the only way to live life, is to make it easier as you go, not difficult. For the self and everyone else.
1/1:May 2014 give us lots of light n warmth. Lots of opportunities to move in the right direction, towards greater freedom, greater mental well-being, greater balance, greater meaning. Blessed 2014 ahead.
it was THE defining moment of my lifetime .
one is most aware in pain, whilst i was trying to push haohao out, these were the thoughts that ran through me
I told myself I want to create a new pathway.
I told myself there is nothing I cannot do if i do not limit myself. Don’t stop myself.
I told myself, I don’t want to take the old road again.
and i can’t help being touched n inspired by these.
i will b well. i can heal myself. i will be happy.
I think 2013 was about selfless giving n to a certain extent, experimenting with a different way of life, trying to put in place the inspirations i have had.
In the new 2014, i think it will be about executing certain inspirations with a higher level of confidence n boldness, with a stronger n surer sense of myself.
i want to be with my kids n myself more. I want to work for a better love. Find my love back.
I want to slow down.
I need to learn to b more selective. Whether it b at work or my diet. Whether it b a thought or a feeling.
I want to reclaim a bit of myself. I like to find me back, on a deeper level. I want my heart, soul n body to sync more n i will work towards that, so as to gain a deeper more solid sense of inner ease n peace, n emotional stability.
i want to do more good in more ways than one, it could be in writing, to inspire n to b inspired. i hope to be able to meet my teacher n to receive guidance n blessings from him, yongey mingyur rinpoche. i hope to b able to contribute n to help people in need. along the way, roping my children in.
i want to work towards being more attentive to my heart, to listen to its voice n to follow it.
I want to correct myself, all those unwholesome ways n be positive .
i want to open myself up further, to invite more space, n create depth n width in my body n mind.
i want to better myself n be more generous to myself n to others. i want to be more grounded n aware. i want to help myself grow in wisdom. i want to heal myself.
I want to make an obvious step to moving toward greater freedom, greater mental well-being, greater balance, greater meaning
I want to eat sleep n live like a baby.
I know I m powerful n I want to b with my power .
i want to be more mindful.
i want to be in the moment. Be open n present to life.
just be. be the light that i was n have been, to reclaim that light, to be a light upon myself n to others.
i want to take an active step to curate my life。to do things i really want, say/write things i really mean,be the real me.
i took a long walk, i took some time by myself, i tried to let loose, and had some inspirations along the way. i felt happier, because i heard my heart.
i love my work, i feel happy realising that, after that being so tough and trying, i still love my work very much, and it feels so good. its not about the money or anyone’s recognition. its being responsible for my words, my work and feeling satisfied after writing a good piece.
its that simple.
but i also understand, that the load was simply too much for me.my priorities have changed, now i want and need more time with myself and my family in the time ahead.
yes i love my work, but they do not mean as compared to my family.
and so, i want to take active steps to curating my life, to make things work for me and my family. and then in the meantime, continue to write with sincerity and from the heart.
i want to live simply and cut away all that i didn’t need. i need to listen to myself and go with my heart. i want to heal myself and others. i want to continue to be a light upon myself and others.
i want to give myself this chance to live the way i want, and so i will take active steps to address it, to step out. i want to live my life, the way i want.
if i do not curate it from now, start changing things that don’t work for me from now, then when?
i need to help myself from now.
i had a spa session at st regis earlier and i thought, why do people celebrate the new year?what is 2014 worth celebrating for?
the new, i realise. its wonderful to be given a chance to start anew and afresh, from ground zero. there r no rules, you r not bound by restrictions. you are free. and once a yr, we r given this chance. how blessed we are. how blessed we are.
in fact, every moment of the way, if we are aware, every moment presents us with the opportunity to experience it like never before.
and realising that , it is as if 2015 is a new book of empty pages. its that wonderful and i want to fill in the pages with all of that i said.
then i really want to go n celebrate.
i want to celebrate me. all the triumphs big and little ones along the way. all the hard work put in, all that effort put in to do my best. and to all that i tried hard for, the wonderful moments i had, the realisations i had, the wisdom that guided me. i m worth celebrating, once and again, i tried to push boundaries, i didn’t settle for less, i did to the best of me, from my heart. thank you 2014 for the opportunities and love.
and, good bye.