its been a while since i have had this feeling.
feelings of heaviness , discomfort, bloat n difficulty in breathing, a tightness. one pain followed another.
i felt vexed n frustrated.
why why why?i asked
what caused it?
how did i slip into this again?didnt i just come out from it?
n i thought, this is one of the pains of life.
we r always struggling , fighting something.
a part of ourself which we feel helpless at…
but it seems to me, i was the one who orchestrated this all, in my line of thoughts. i sought to reside in fear.
i want to change this, n now is the time.
fighting it isnt the way to go. its accepting n changing. a bit of change here n there to kickstart a new pathway . creating some flexibility here n there. i want to n have to.
bcoz this is the one thing i can do for my children.
to give them a mother who is fearless.